This is the way...

I woke up nasty. I really don't like that. It pulls down my house around me and the chaos that follows is hard to clean up.

Getting out of bed was hard, answering immediate, constant and annoying questions from pushy kids was hard, and getting through breakfast was hard. Changing Joshua's diaper was hard. Everything pulling at my patience and making my voice want to rise.

So I've been praying. Prayer is hard for me. Especially when kids are pulling on me and begging me to spend time with them instead.

My response? Explaining how Satan is fighting for my head right now. I COULD spend time with them right now, but that would do nothing to stop Satan from his foothold on my attitude. And what would that mean for our day? Sure misery.

After that and offering lots of cuddles while I pray, I had two much happier kids. I'm still teetering, but at least I have had some time to talk to God. During prayer He helped me remember the verse, "this is the way, walk in it." I love that. I really like how He doesn't squash me like a bug and say, "that was wrong! Don't do it that way!" No, it's opposite of that. It's kind, gentle, positive and encouraging. Its looking forward and redirecting an action instead of dwelling on the wrongs.

Now to let Him tell me how to walk in the way today as I do the same for my youngins. I'm off to live life more abundantly.